Looking back over 2014

As the Year comes to an end I thought 
I would share a few pictures from my year :)
I have so much to be thankful for, and although sometimes 
IVF makes my point of view a tunnel toward failure, this is not so.  
I have such great life and know deep inside it will all work out in my favor.

Paint night with sisters and friends!

And again this past month!

Bridesmaid in my best friends wedding! 

A Halloween Costume for Hunter!  Took me forever! 

Hunter's First Day at OLA

Nana and grandpa celebrate 74 years together!

Another Baseball Game

 Kids come over to play!

New Dining room table 

I got a new car!

New engagement ring on our anniversary!  (and first)

Girls Weekend bachelorette 

Another box of IVF meds


The Santa Baby Commercial! Please just pull the trigger while your at it

Am I alone on this one?  Living in limbo is not easy.  Will I ever be a mom?  Is this the round that will work? Will any round work?

A moment happened to me last night after snuggling into bed. It was a commercial.

I wanted to throw my water glass at the tv. I was pissed and upset.  I felt that it was the most hurtful commercial I have ever seen. Why? Because it's dangling pregnancy front of me.  5 beautiful pregnant girls dancing all cute and sexy.  I just didn't want to see it and was having a physical reaction - and of all times of the year? Christmas, the hardest holiday for us struggling to get pregnant people.  It hurt and after it was over I just about started to cry. Knowing my husband was laying next to me I held it in. 
I am in limbo! This is what it's about.  Pretending it doesn't hurt when it does.  
Feeling jealous over all class, age or size of woman at any given moment.

I know I can't erase the world. It just sucks to be in limbo.

*IVF Round 5 Update* To Blog (in-time) Or Not To Blog!

So I finally have our dates for IVF round 5 and I am once again..  Exited & Nervous!
It seems like I've been talking about this forever!

Now that I have my dates I am scared to Blog in-time about the play by play

  • Scared for it not to work.
  • Nervous for my personal story to be out there for everyone to read.
  • What if this is the last round and it doesn't work?

So many Fears and questions.
Ultimately I know what the answer is.
I will blog my day to day experience.  In-time
I totally respect people who delay posting and trust me I understand!
For me I feel that the reason I am blogging about my journey in the first place is to let people jump on board with me.  Delaying these posts leaves too much wonder.

  • The post are my true feelings in time
  • Postin that day leaves no room for editing the raw reality
  • I hope to enlighten anyone of the realities of IVF

Unsure if anyone even will follow along, it actually helps me.  It gives me a place to let it all out and share.  

So thanks to all my followers out there! Your comments are always appreciated. 

The scoop:
I will be going off BC Dec 27th
Injections start as soon as New Years Eve.  Retrieval to match up with my husbands sperm retrieval mid Jan. I will write post once I know more.  

5 Reasons Why You Should Stop Complaining About Your Elf On The Shelf Now!

I spent the morning stewing over a Facebook post by of all people... my sister.  "Am I the only parent who has zero interest in doing Elf on the Shelf? Hasn't this thing jumped the shark yet? It was followed by this link. http://www.mommyish.com/2014/10/25/i-will-never-buy-elf-on-the-shelf/
I read it and I get it, but it still doesn't make right what happened next...  over 20 people commented on this elf saying things like "It is awful", "don't do it", "it's all about the overachieving parents on pinterest"and my favorite "ain't nobody got time for that" lol!  Suddenly I couldn't help but notice other posts by people complaining of this toy.  

Why the fuss?  Why is everyone complaining?

I understand if a parent chooses not to do it for any reason they choose.  What I do not understand is the competition between parents and lack of empathy and understanding for parents who do? 

Here is my list of reasons I don't want to 
hear you complain about your Elf On The Shelf

1. Nobody likes a Martyr.  Definition: a person who displays or exaggerates their discomfort or distress in order to obtain sympathy or admiration.

2. Some parents actually enjoy it and have embraced this as a tradition.  Why rain on their parade?

3. Some of us have been trying for years and can only dream of having a little one let alone hide a magical elf around the house for them.  You sound like a jerk! 

4. If your kid is not even age appropriate you are just an idiot for even doing it let alone complain. 

5. Do it or don't do it.  Some of us just don't want to hear about how hard it is to do things for your kids or what parenting style you are choosing.  Save it for you mommy and me group.  

3 Day ReFresh Honest Review - I am not a coach!

I just finished the 3 Day Refresh by Beachbody

Determined to get back on track with my health and snap out of the bad habits I have formed these past few years, I had decided to take on the challenge.
The biggest problem with this product is that all of the reviews are mostly written by Beachbody coaches themselves.  Now why would they put down a product they are selling? 
I am not a Beachbody Coach and make no money for this product. 

How hard was it? Harder than expected although I thought it would be a walk in the park.  I am not an over eater and felt that the 900 calories a day would be a mild change.  It is the habits I was breaking that was hard.  I didn't realize how bad I had gotten.

Did I lose weight? Yes but not much.  I was extremely disappointed hearing people loosing an average 5-7 pounds. A few days later I noticed I lost 2 pounds

How do I feel? This is the best part, I feel amazing! I have more energy, I feel awake and literally refreshed!

(sounds like I am full of it but I really feel this way)

What I did to Prepare:
I read many reviews online waiting for my package to arrive.  The biggest complaint I read was the Coffee/Caffeine hangover people experienced.   
  • Now you do not have to cut out coffee if you are that addicted but.. to get the best results yes, it is recommended to consume coffee or black tea.
Luckily for me, my acupuncturist had recommended I  stop consuming all coffee and black tea a couple weeks prior.  I stopped immediately.  I had consumed 1-2 cups of coffee a day as well as 1-2 cups of black tea a day.  I have to admit I felt terrible for 3-5 days after quitting.  Groggy and irritable I felt like I was literally hungover.  The worst was the Migraine!  The worst I had ever had.

Water Water Water!  Start drinking more.  During the refresh you will consume much vitamins and minerals not to mention the Fiber Sweep.  Your body will need lots of water to absorb all of this or it will not work or could lead to terrible dehydration or worse.  Remember Water! 

Preparation Tips:
Stop drinking Coffee and Black Tea prior to Refresh
Take a day to read over booklet that comes with refresh
Fill your fridge with fruits and veggies
Get a travel container for your Shakeology
Container handy for water - it will help you remember to drink it

Day 1:
6am I woke up and drank 1 large glass of water 
7am I made a chocolate Shakeology (water only)
7:45am Gym
9:30am 1 Cup of Green Tea
11am Drank the Fiber Sweep
  • Fiber Sweep was very gritty! I want expecting this.  Tasted Good! 
  • I started feeling hunger pings!  I knew this would happen from reviews I had read!  I am also realizing just how often I snack.
1pm Lunch 1 Cup of Vanilla Fresh, 2 tablespoons Hummus, 1 medium celery Stalks 4 baby tomatoes and 12 strawberries.
  • Feeling full from Vanilla Fresh!  Had to take a breather and finish rest of lunch.  
  • I will likely pick a less amount of fruit next time

4pm snack of 5 carrots and 2 tablespoons of hummus. 
  • Was not hungry for this but knew I should stay on track.  I couldn't imagine consuming anything else today.
5:30pm Dinner Vanilla Refresh and 12 greenbeens steamed lightly salted 
  • I was actually surprised how small this was and I think my mind took over telling me it wasn't enough.  I spent the next 2 hours thinking I was hungry. Funny since just an hour earlier I was so.. full!  My stomach grumbled until I fell asleep

Tips I learned from Day 1
Again drink a lot of water!  Consuming so much fiber it is important to stay extra EXTRA hydrated.  
Get ready for the Hunger!  For me it was morning and night, I was fine all day.  remember this is only temporary!  

Day 2:
6:30am I woke up and had a tall glass of water
7am time for my Shakeology
  • It was filling and again tasted great 
7:45am Gym
10am Green Tea
11:30am Fiber Sweep
1pm Lunch 1 Cup of Vanilla Fresh, Hummus tomatoes and broccoli with 12 strawberries
4pm Snack carrots and hummus
5:30pm Dinner Vanilla Fresh Cucumber dinner meal

Day 3:
Same as day 2 but no Gym

Day 3 was the hardest for me.  I could not wait for it to be over and I was feeling groggy in the morning.  My coach told me it was the toxins coming out of my body.

I weighed myself the morning of day 4 and had lost 1 pound.
I was shocked and upset.  I mean I was starving and it was REALLY hard.
A couple days later I realized that I actually lost MAYBE 2 pounds.

Would I do it again?
No  After some time away from it I realize it just didn't do much for me

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